It seems I’m never completely satisfied with my site. I’m always tinkering with the layout, experimenting with different ways to organize things, and trying new ideas. I enjoy the process of building websites, but I’ve always struggled with maintaining them over the long term.
After a month or two, I usually reach a point where the excitement fades and frustration starts to set in. That’s when I get the urge to wipe the slate clean and start over. That’s where I find myself again. I’m sticking with Pagecord, but I’m starting fresh with a new design.
This time, I’m trying to keep things simple. Just a basic blog and nothing more. That’s the plan, anyway. I can’t promise I won’t change direction again in a few weeks, but I’m going to give this version a chance and see where it leads.
06-20-26: Ava’s post, You Can Stick With It, made me realize I’ve been self-sabotaging by constantly switching blogging platforms and overthinking my site design.
She writes:
Switching the tool or hoster won’t suddenly give you more time, more discipline, more fun writing... if it does, it’s likely just temporary because it’s shiny and new. A few weeks down the line and you’re back where you started. I’m saying all this with love and care. Looking on from the outside, you always manage to ruin it for yourself. You’ll spend more time setting it up than using it...
and I can really relate with this:
At the same time, the view you have of yourself is ruining it too. You are constantly devaluing and putting down your past selves and what they created. You dismiss your own writing as yapping, rambling, trash. You think it’s old, it’s cringe, it’s embarrassing, it’s not deep enough, no one cares about it, it doesn’t reflect your mental space 2 weeks later, so you burn it all down. You reinvent yourself over and over like an act of shame.
If you struggle with this as well, I encourage you to read the full post. I know I can be my own worst enemy at times, and it often takes an outside perspective to see that clearly.